Growing Up. I think that as I grow older, I've learnt to be quieter. It seems that the world is usually better off if I just keep my mouth shut. I guess I should. Because opening my mouth never got me anything good so far. So goodbye world. I'll just not talk. - Kevin.
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I haven't blogged. Well, I'm returning to my blog to give a tiny update to my life. Anyway I'm going in to NS on 14th November and it's gonna be two years of my life given to the country. These few nights I've been pretty alright, I think. Sure, those emotional nights are coming back again. Sigh. I really wish that these thoughts wouldn't cloud my head anymore. Those are people who are not around or walked out of my life because they don't deserve to be in my life any longer. I need to remember that. Sigh. But it's just so difficult. I miss those days. As I always say, I don't wish to change my past. I just want to experience it again, the exact same way. Can I, please?
Disgusting Singaporeans I am truly disgusted with the people of Singapore. Plainly put, they are idiots. Recently I've been scrutinising comments to articles in the online media and am very disgusted with Singaporeans. One example, City Harvest Church. Look at the comments. Totally horrible and cursing at their own local church even before any verdict is passed. It is one of the larger churches in S.E. Asia and yet as Singaporeans, you're not even proud of it. Home grown talent Nat Ho has a missing father and everyone comments on articles and curses Nat Ho, the PAP (no idea how you Singaporeans can link that) and just put the family down. Ever wondered why Singaporeans can never groom good people in the arts and media industry? It's not because of PAP or Singapore, but Singaporeans. If they don't support anything or anyone, how can they make it big? One word for Singaporeans, DISGUSTING. Another example, Inch Chua. Talent without any support from her own countrymen. P...
Humility, Jesus-like, not God-like. So anyway, today I had a talk with someone and I got quite a rude shock. I've never believed that there was such a thing as a cell group leader who does not live up to his or her position. I've heard stories before but I've never believed it. I've always stood by ALL the cell leaders in my church. But what I've found out recently really broke the last straw and left me wondering if I was blindly supporting the wrong group. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not against my church. It's just that it came to my attention why some people shun away from my church. It might not always be due to the fact that we are loud, contemporary, God-loving, or constantly praising God for everything. Some times, it's the attitude and true character of the people. No leader is perfect, yes. But there are certain things that leaders should not do, at least not repeatedly. I'm not going to dive into the specifics but as leaders...
Happy Birthday, to me. Before I dwell on 16 June, I wanna remember the YK Hunger Games camp. I think that it was quite a nice camp. Really renewed a lot of our visions, dreams, and walk with God. Being part of the tiny media team that we had was something I'll really remember. The grumpy sleep deprived nights really paid off with the closing video. Not to self-praise myself, but I really think that I managed to create a summary video that was quite well done, comparing to my past works. Really thank God for that opportunity and how I'm able to be a blessing to many through my works. (; So, 21. It's pretty much a big number. I really didn't expect or plan much for my 21st, in fact I planned nothing. For the first time, I pretty much did nothing while plans just either fell in, or someone else would've planned it. Really amazed at how everything was like this year. Started off with a camp at ECP by the Bedok Jetty with some cell members, a budget barbecue by the t...
好,在一起。 That's the line from the movie You Are The Apple of My Eye that was only revealed towards the end of the movie. It was the line written on the hot air lantern that they were letting go of. I think that it was the sweetest part of the movie, when they were out on a "date" in a place away from their state. In a way, it's like going on a holiday. When I just re-watched the part when they first met at the train station and the guy was complaining about the cold, it just brought tears to me when the girl offered the guy one of her hand gloves. A lot of things just come back from certain things that you watch or hear. :/ Maybe I shouldn't have gone to China after all. I should've just stayed in Singapore and enjoyed my semester holiday last year. Anyway, back to the reason for this post, I guess I'm pretty happy with how things turned out. I've been living well and good. (: Anyway, I don't really know why people (including me) are so afraid of...
你喜欢我吗？ So, I really don't know. In just a few weeks things in my life and family has turned upside down. Dad is someone who lives as each day passes with no future in mind. Just figured out today that we'll probably need to sell off this house and move to a cheaper flat in another estate to help finance my mom's cancer treatments and parent's future. I'm okay with this plan, just that I'll need time to settle and let news sit. I mean, I'm so used to my house being convenient and at such a prime location. I've practically lived in this house since I was a baby. :/ But it's inevitable that we'll need to move. Hopefully we don't move to a place with really bad location. So much can change in my life in just a few weeks, including personal stuff. :/ Anyway, my enlistment has been dragged. Went for my first appointment at NUH last Wednesday and they gave a follow-up appointment on November 23. My enlistment is seriously gonna be dragged on. Oh...
我已经变了；但也来不及了 So, it has been a while since I've updated my blog. After all, who even bothers to read my blog? I must say that the past two weeks have been a crazy period for me. To those who know everything that has happened in my life including the tiny details, I thank you for standing with me even if I only shared recently. You'll know who you are. Please stay with me, I need all of you. Every one of you give me a different kind of support in my life. Here I am, back to the basic. Truth be told, I was quite frustrated with You. I even started to find reasons to have nothing to do with You. Because if it was You, why did You have to put me through this pain THREE times? Is the fourth time going to be good? How do I trust again? But today I've realised that I've made a mistake. So I'm back to basics, on my knees with worship songs. God, it is true that You won't let us see things that we are unable to handle. At first I thought that seeing it would cause...
Things can't be the same anymore. Well, I guess life is just like this. It's always against me. Anyway this MV doesn't really have anything to do with this post, just thought that it's nice. But anyhow, things just haven't been going very well. I think. Maybe it's all in my head. Maybe things are actually going well for me, except that something in my mind is blocking it. But I don't know. Sigh. You asked me why I'm always down and why I'm going through this depression, yet you are unable to see that the reason is you. I've been crying the past two nights and even now I'm shedding tears as I type this blog post. If I'm such a horrible person, why did you create me in the first place God? Do you really need me on this earth? What use am I to this earth? I create problems and have done many wrongs. Why don't you take my life and remove me from this earth, God? If not I'll just take my own life away from this place. I'm not fit t...
Hi, So, my life as a student has officially expired. I'm kind of just a free man now, waiting for my enlistment which has been delayed due to the PES D status. I can either choose to work or just enjoy my free time while I have it. Maybe I'll work part-time, I don't know. But I'm definitely not going back into the service industry. It's a place where customers have zero respect for you with a tough working condition. Anyway, I guess my three years in poly has been quite difficult. People who smile at you in front of you end up backstabbing you and tearing you down when you least expect it. Anyway, I've been reflecting for the past few days and I'm back to staring out of my window and just enjoying the so-called 'view' that i have. Some times I wish that HDB didn't build all these tall 40 story-high flats, because they block my view of Singapore. :/ I am a walking example of someone who puts on a smile and laughs in front of people, just not to ki...