--.The Memories Of Us.--

Platinum Is Pretty. Hmm, i'm here to announce my BBQ! Actually i already booked it a long time ago, just that it's only appropriate for me to announce now because my exams are almost through. The remaining 4 papers are pretty easy to study for. Anyways, this bbq is mainly for everyone who's done with school or who is free. The details are below. Location : East Coast Park, Area C, Pit 27 . Date/Time : 17 November 2008, Starts at 5pm, Ends next morning. Please note the change in pit number. It's no longer traditional 41! lols. And f.y.i., Pit 27 is the nearest pit to East Coast Mac . I will make a video to guide all of you to the pit and upload it by 14th November over here. As always, there'll be music, self-marinated chicken, food, great charcoal smoke, and a great time to hang around together. People who are available, do come! (: Will be sending out invitations soon! Those whom i missed out, bug me about it! heh! Everyone whom i know can come! ;D

:O Ohmy, The Capitacard that i applied for came! But i seriously dont know why they put the name as "DBS Moneysmart Card" under my iBanking. It made me worry that they'd give me the moneysmart card which i would totally not need. The best thing about this Capitacard, it has rebates! ;D And capitacard is a platinum. ;D Ohman, i'm so happy. heh. Right now, i have 3 mastercards already, all for different purposes. This is just so wonderful... heh.

Ugh. Just came back from church. I'm really starting to wonder, what is wrong with me? Why was i so impulsive? I don't feel okay. Ever since the incident, i haven't been feeling okay. Sigh. I'm Sorry. That is what i need to say. Sigh.

Mau. Update Update! heh. Have been away from my blog for quite a while now. Well the Os have been pretty good and fun. heh. Good experience. (: And, i have been having a little bit of insomnia this week. :/ Don't know why as well. Anyways, i think DBS approved my other debit card that i applied for. I checked ibanking and saw an extra card in my "banking facilities". But it says DBS moneysmart card? I want the DBS Capitacard! If not, there's no point in it. ): Ohman. It'll still be the same debit card that i already have! ): Soblets. Nvm, shall wait for it to arrive, then i'll see what card they're giving me. Waillll..! ):

Untitled. (Nervous) I was trembling. I looked around. All i could see was about 6 teenagers hanging around. That was good, for a crowd would definitely increase the tension that was already over powering. My best friend Jack was across the road from the cafe which i was at. I guess he could sense my nervousness and thus gave me an encouraging smile with the traditional "okay?" sign with his fingers. I nodded my head, but perhaps too delicately for him to notice... We both had this plan since a year ago. It was nothing special - in fact it seems like a typical drama - but what else have we got? We have targeted this cafe and had every single delicate detail planned out already. Throwing away this plan would be too much of a waste, even if it was over rated and common.So far, everything has gone as planned. The fierce Singapore sun has took a break to recharge, and the dark clouds were hanging around, but not threatening to cry upon us. The cool breezes wafting past the cafe an...

Control, Mr Kevin. Ohmans. I have swiped my Mastercard 4 times this weekend. Thats about 3 month's quota fulfilled. (I gotta get 18 swipes per year for my card membership fee to be waived) Ohman, and it totalled close to $100 just for this weekend. Man, though i got reimbursed for most of the amount by parents, it's still a lot of moolah... I gotta cut down on my spending man. And wow, do i have statements like adults. GIRO payment, debit card, weekly deposits. I need the budget sheet man. ):

Where? Where is it, where is it, where is this beautiful mail? Ohmans, where is my Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon (SCSM) Volunteer confirmation email? I think i'm too excited for everything. :/ But really, it's supposed to be sent yesterday the 17th. ): Hmm.. This is not good... Usually the last few to receive it are the ones that got rejected. ): Sigh sigh. SSC, quickly send me. I'm anxious for it. ): And i'm excited for O lvl papers. :/ Anyways, today had prayer meeting. It passed real fast. And really, it was pretty easy for me to step in today. And i thank God, really , that i managed to get seats for the cg today. I was close to crying and breaking down while queueing up today. But God is good yeah? I managed to get it, with his blessings week after week. (: O's in 2 days, good luck everyone! (:

Ohman. I think i'm weird. I'm actually excited for Os, and i feel like it's a happy occasion. Perhaps it's the only period which i actually push myself to study. heh! No anxiety, no stress. How weird. LOL. Anyways, Stan Chart/SSC says that the confirmation for the Stan Chart S'pore Marathon volunteers would be emailed by today, 17 October. Ohman, they're late. And i really really hope we're selected. ): soblets.

Nervousness; For the majority of O levelers, it is less than 12 hours before our first paper. For a handful, it is about a little more than 4 days. I am here - publishing this pretty late as not many will read in time - to encourage everyone. I remember a verse that i got from the 21st August morning prayer meeting which co-incided with my O's English oral. It is really timely that i got this reminder from God above. and it is from Ephesians 3:20. I took my dad's bible to get two other versions, one of which is New International Version , and other being New Standard Bible . In NKJV, it says "Now to him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us." In NIV, it says "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." In NSB, it says "Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think,...

Study. Ooh. So far, i've already studied for 35 hours since sunday. ;D Such an amazing accomplishment. And you ! I have not forgotten about your big big pressie, even though you didn't say anything about it. Give me time, after Os i'll slowly hunt for the one you like since you never told me which big one what you wanted. HEHEHEH! ;D And oh, tomorrow is time to cut my hair in prep for Os. ): Bye bye, hair.

! Oh my my my, Just shoo off. Can't believe it. Of everyone, i left you out. It was just you, and your doings.

Stan Chart & Os. Those are the only two things that i care about now. Stan Chart volunteering and Os. I'm excited for both. Os will be a great period of intense studying. Standard Chartered results for volunteer selection should be out by end of October at it's latest. Ohmans, i wanna get selected for it.. And i wanna do so exceedingly well for my Os to show all my relatives that i am not just all play, but contextual knowledge as well.. ):

HAHA! I shall re-do the previous post. I guess it wasn't good for my image to yell out my past which is just horrible, horrible. Well, i've got nothing to say. Tag all you want, it'll be deleted. I didn't do anything wrong, and i didn't start the trouble. Basic human rule - even if youre a gangster, you dont show it and start trouble first. If you do, you're a poseur, not ahbeng or gangster. Well, people stop scolding the poseur. If he tags, i'll just be deleting his tag. He can't do much. At most, i'll remove the tagboard totally, which i should have done ever since March this year. Life is peaceful living in ignorance. (: And once again, i'm just laughing at how people are try so hard to act cool. HAHAHAH.

Ughs. Next week would be O's already. And first written paper is Chem. Argh. Why can't it be something else. ): And the papers are all so close to each other. Well, it'll be exciting, but so busy. Hmph. But well, i'm not that prepared for it, but i can't wait for it to be over with! heh. ;D

... Are pears suppose to have a tinge of sour-ness to it? I've been eating pears these couple of days and they all taste sour-ish. And no, they're not bad. They're pretty fresh. Ohwells. Anyways, why can't some people just control what they blurt out? Right in front of my eye today, i saw a person close to crumbling. A person i least expected to react in this way did so. Sigh. The next time you blurt out something, think about how it'll affect him/her, even if that person is not hearing. It can change things.

Life. O's are coming, and i'm not scared. In fact, i'm excited for it. ;D It's more exciting than any other thing i feel now. heh! Can't wait can't wait. Just 2 more weeks. heh! Well, school is boring. All im getting everyday is just papers. :/ Shall pon school on Tuesday and Friday to avoid SS lesson and prevent myself from getting caught for hair by Tang. Hmms. Do i look attached? :/ It's a weird thing. 4 months of singlehood, people! I'm totally single! HAHAHAH. Don't get any wrong ideas please. And i'll be keeping it this way. (:

Stop Prejudice. I am totally depressed now. But i'll just sleep it off tonight. Sometimes, if i could turn back time, i would not change things. But i would want to re-experience everything all over again. Sweet moments in time will never be treasured until months or years down, though it will be remembered. Times when it was only me and you, and sometimes with him as well after school. Or maybe times when i ignored the three words desperately coming from her. Sighs. Just remember, i will always remember everything, everyone. Remember me as a once-jerk whom you once dated, a guy from class of barker 08', or maybe someone from your good ol' childhood days. One day, when anyone of you - and i really mean anyone, as long as i know you - needs someone to rant at, find me. I will not give solutions because it won't help the burden, but i will be all ears to let you rant at. Scream at me, type messages in caps, vent, or yell any problems at me. I'll be nice. I give this p...

Stan Chart. Woke up early in the morning today to go for Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon Leadership interview. The walk there made me melt under the charcoal hot sun. Apparently i'm the first and didn't even have enough time to dry off before going into the interview room. I guess i brought myself well, but i think my chances of getting through are low. Ohwells. Will just go by faith. (:

Hmm. I know how it feels like waiting for that one thing that you so desire to appear. For me, instead of waiting, i've decided to let someone enjoy the joy of it. I know you're both happy and sad. But at least i'm sure you're happy cause you got something - something that i have waited so long for but have yet to come - but sad because it was only half of your desire. But hey, you still got half of it. I got none. (: Ohwells. I'm blogging nonsense. No one would understand what i'm blogging about. Only myself. :/

Leadership Position? Hmm, I've been asked to go for a leadership position interview tomorrow morning amidst hundreds for the Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. Oh gosh. It's so scary. I didn't even tick the leadership position, and little did i know that the role as a Baggage Crew Manager was a leadership position. Arghs. Ohwells. But if i get through, i'll be so happy! It means i'll get to be part of the volunteer team of the marathon. So cool. ooooh. Addidas shirt!

Random. Maybe the exams are drawing near. Maybe things changed. Maybe my heart is no longer opened. Maybe it's just the time of the month. Or maybe it's just the day. Once again i feel totally drained out of my happy emotions . I went out with family today, yet i have to put up a smile. Everywhere i go, i have to put up a smile. A smile so weak that only people who know me well would know it's fake. Life is unfair, and many times, i get emotional strikes for no apparent reason. No problems, no disappointment, no stress, yet i get depressed every now and then. Someone bring me back to life? :/

Reminisces. Shall blog on the essence of my sweet seventeenth brithday barbeque event. Yes i was depressed on that day. But no doubt did i enjoy the bbq. It was only at night when it was close to being over that i felt down. Honestly, it's one of those days where things could not have gotten any better because it was already the best, but you still demand more. I was that small kid whining for more. Well, many things don't go the way you want it to because you planned it. You wanted it to go that way and only that way. The event was good with an unexpected 18 friends turning up. Yet i still wanted something more though it was already memorable. I wanted it to last the entire night. That was my only desire. The great music screaming so hair-standing clear from the surround speakers with it's max without distortion, and the smell of freshly barbequed chicken pain-stakingly marinated by my own the night before. Stares of passer-bys fill my pit as they slow down their pace whil...