--.The Memories Of Us.--

A Dedication. I have finally found my real friends. N284 , i'm writing this with tears. I love all of you. It was all of you who believed that i could hit 10 study hours per week, and slowly move on to a higher number. It was all of you who believed that i could be serious with my life. It was all of you that helped me commit. And it is all of you, who are the ones who can see the difference in me now compared to last time. I really appreciate all of this. You guys can really encourage me. Thank you once again, N284 .

Peek Peek! First title with an exclaimation mark. (: Anyways today went for Yie Ling's cgm for make-up cgm. Was good. I received a revelation. (: So yeahh. Ate at Mac before rushing down for service by cab. And ZiQiang paid for both. THANK YOU ZIQIANG . Service was great. Anyways after that had dinner and then homeee. (: Today is the best day of my life with God.

Sensitivity. It is a strong word. Seriously, why is it that no one in this world gives two hoots about my feelings? No one is ever sensitive with his/her words to me, and people just don't realise how much it hurts me. I may have taken everything people say too seriously, but it is just there. How can i let everything just pass me by? Sighs. And oh, this post is not directed at a single person or at a few people. It's just a general statement . sighs. This is how sensitive i am. You may take a year to realise it. But in time you will.

Everywhere. Today the school went for a movie outing. My class watched Money Not Enough 2. Jack Neo came at the ending though. After that had lunch with Marwin, Eugene, Matt, Fred, and his bro at NYDC. Sherylene came as well. Over there, i took a dare to drink a little water with a lil' tobasco sauce in it, and also keeping it in my mouth for 5 secs first. Man, it killed. The instant i swallowed, my stomach didn't feel good. It couldn't accept it and was forcing me to puke. Arghs. Ohwells. And in the evening had gastrics. Walked quite a bit today though. :/ Hope i'll get better soon. But it was worth it. We seldom eat together out of school. (:

I wanna go mountain biking. I want to feel the adrenaline rush coupled with the vigorous pounding of my heart as i race through the narrow dirt tracks at speed which are too high for comfort. The rocky and slippery mud along with sharp turns on the dirt track will keep you praying that you can maintain control over your bike, even as your bike vibrates and fly over the rocks and only giving you a split second to decide what to dodge or where to turn. Mountain biking is definitely not child's play or for slow thinkers. One second could mean life and death. And it's a game i really want to go soon, especially with tomorrow being my last prelim paper. (: now, who wanna follow? (:

Blogging from my phone again... Well, have been blessed by the daily prayer meetings in the morning. In the afternoon today had eng O lvl orals. Reading was good, picture was bad, and convo lasted MUCH longer than reading and picture combined. I managed to interact quite well. So now, i just got to work on my written paper in October. ;D

MeowNuts. Let's see now, Saturday night went to watch sneak preview of 4bia at 3am with Jaan. Was actually deciding on whether to watch that or love guru. Felt that i wanted a thrill so we watched 4bia. I presumed that i needed a thrill, but i forgot about the time. A horror movie late at night. Man, it was just sick. Froze my backside. Ohwells. But was great. (: A movie after so long.. Anyway today was geog paper. I'm so gonna do badly for it. ): All i studied was for physical, and i didn't even get the points. Apparently i didn't pay attention to the points that i was suppose to note as i flipped through my book when i was studying. arghs, so sad. And, it's only a matter of time before i get caught for long fringe. :/

Called Me Yours Forever. Today, got chased out of Mac. I spent more than i should be. And, i dropped 20cents into my bowl of soup.

Living For You. Last monday i was physically sick. Today i'm mentally sick of life.

I am sick, again . Plus, i have 2 papers tmr. :/

Close To Giving Up. Seems like every time i try to lead or take initiative, there is something wrong with it. I already know why i am doing things this way, and there is a valid reason. It was later proven to be true. But still, no one believed in whatever i was doing even after it was proven right. Whatever i say, is not pleasing to anyone. I may have offended, but still, i wanted things done, not left around. Seriously, I'm supposed to be asleep by now but I'm still up and thinking about this. Maybe i should just follow you guys. I should keep quiet, do my own things, play around, and hope that someone else will take the initiative to do the task that was supposed to be done a minute ago.

Time Flies. Time seriously flies. It seems like just a month ago that i was standing at the same spot watching the firework display with Glen. I have not blogged about this. But i am now. When i was at FOP second night, i was looking around. And it was really fast. It really seemed like just awhile back that i was there worshipping God at the Indoor Stadium with Don Moen & Pastor Phil's church band. I cannot believe it. None of my years have passed this fast. Every year was the same except for this year, 2008. Sigh i have wasted my 2008. In 2 months, it is Os. Just awhile back, it was 3 more months to go. In just awhile, it would be a month to go before Os. Sighs. Anyway, below is a link to a video snippet of the FOP 3rd night. (of course im not the one who filmed it) But i just found it. Those who missed it, listen to the two drums playing together especially at the solo part. It's not very clear, but the best that i could get. Sigh. Time seriously flies. And im not feelin...

My Firsts. Today was the first National Day that i: \\ Went to watch fireworks w/o Glen. \\ Lost my cool. \\ Did not film or take a single scene of the fireworks. \\ Did not cycle down to Esplanade. \\ Saw it rain. \\ saw a different firework schedule. \\ Watch fireworks with more than 1 other friend. Cool eh? So many. Anyway today i studied until 5 with Steph, Riliang, and Vann, then we walk around tpy while waiting for James. Went down to City hall to meet Das & ZiQiang, then walk over to Marina Boulevard to watch the fireworks. I stood around the area that i stood last year. Check out my post exactly one year ago and you can tell that this years' fireworks were pretty boring compared to last year's. Anyway Das went off before the second round started, and there was sort of 3 rounds. Suppose to be 2. Pretty unexpected. Anyway when walking off, it was pretty funny. We were crossing the road to take a bus to Bishan to eat, cause we thought Lau Pa Sat was crowded. But when w...

And I'm Free. Let's see now. School was basically a drag everyday. Except the fact that i got full marks for radioactivity test. English paper was on Thursday and the passage was like so cheem. Didn't do well for compo as well. My sentences were far too simple; a primary one kid could write it as well. And today was just pretty boring. School started earlier and i had to lug an A2 corrugated board along with a bag and portfolio to school. After ndp celebrations at 930am, (it ended earlier than i expected) i went to eat breakfast with Eugene and Fred, then did D&T until 430pm. Time passed way faster than i thought. Rushed back to tpy, met a few church peeps, bought stuff, and went over to Rita's house for the steamboat thingy. Today was a long day, but a pretty relieving one. I submitted my journal and boards for d&t today. Today is the last time that i would ever see it. I am finally free from the bondage of d&t coursework and i can focus on other subjects. ...

Break Free. Well, i wanted to devote today to studying. But before i slept last night as well as today when i woke up, i felt real empty. I don't know why. But i studied for 2 hours, and decided to follow Ziqiang to FOP today. It was only him and me today. Service was great. Living for eternal things . I managed to capture the word much better today compared to yesterday when i was half-dazed. At the closing, Reuben Morgan's Hillsong team played after Parachute Band. But halfway through, he invited them back up to play together. It was just great with two bands playing at the same time. Hillsong's drummer was ecstatically good, with the parachute band's drummer backing up pretty well. It was totally awesome, and never once was there so many people so excited over praise. Ziqiang and I had our voices a lil' hoarse after, but it was just so great. Those who missed it, really missed a great event.

Write You A Love Song. Wells, my sister disappointed my dad when she insisted on going to poly instead of JC. I am aiming to go to poly as well. And i had this casual talk with my dad the other day. He knows about my wants, but he asked if i could make it to JC. I know he really yearns for me to be able to get into a JC. I know that i cannot make the cut-off. My aim for L1R4 is 12-14. And i will ruin my combine humans, which is the only other subject that I'm left to add to make my L1R5. And thus i would not be able to make it. BUT, even if i make the cut-off point and get myself into a JC, i believe with all my heart that i can survive in JC. I know that i can. But i just lack the commitment and perseverance to get myself through JC. My dad is really a nice person. He keeps to whatever he says, and sometimes even does more. Unlike my mother, he never negotiates whenever it comes to issues with money. He gives whatever i need, and whatever he is supposed to give as an allowance. I ...

Update. Shall update. Wasn't feeling okay the past week. So yeahh. School was pretty much a drag everyday. Except for the fact that i invested more time doing d&t during the weekday. (: Friday night i cycled with Hameed and his friends. Cycled to Geylang and back, then to Punggol to explore this abandoned house in the middle of a big field. I tell you, it can scare the balls out of you. The whole house is fenced up with thick metal grilles (which made us unable to climb in) and the house is very run down and had this creepy look. There was this part whereby we stopped to read this sign which warned against trespassing and suddenly the bushes rustled with the metal grilles shaking for like 2 seconds even though there was no wind. It was super scary and we were all scurrying and screaming. But anyway, that was my first time cycling to Punggol. Cycled close to 50km. (: And today was FOP. Was pretty nice, apart from the fact that i was super lethargic. :/