--.The Memories Of Us.--

I don't know why I clicked it. I wish I never clicked it and I wish I never knew. I survived two and a half months completely without you in my heartaches. I don't know why I even clicked. But I was curious. So I clicked. I read. I deciphered. And ouch. Was I truly over you? Probably not. Why am I back to the start now? I know there's better days ahead, Your promises are true. I just don't understand why. Nothing was said to me for 2 and a half years. The best line I've managed to craft as a failure for the relationship was: " For 2 years she showed me off like a shiny penny. She's boasting about the freedom I give us. She's proudly telling people about liking my independence. So what did I do? I assumed I was doing a good job and kept up with it. " But deep inside, was it really what she felt? I've learnt at the last day that she didn't. For 2 years she felt like I was an asshole who wasn't emotionally available. That's h...

What happens. What happens, when someone you saw for three full years, turns out to be someone totally different? How do you react? I'm now just in a huge state of shock and mostly, disappointment. Never thought you'd do those things. Never thought you'd be that easy and open to anyone. Sigh. I just wish. Wish that you were really that small tiny innocent girl you portrayed yourself to be. Or maybe, I wish I had never found out. Just wish I could see you as the girl I was never able to get. Just wish.