--.The Memories Of Us.--

Hmm. Just got home not long ago. Well, MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone. Well, today i woke up at about 11.30am to get ready to meet the people at 130pm to go down to Jurong West for service at 4pm. Wow. Haven't been there for ages.Service there was good. But the drama production wasn't as nice as the one at Expo. ;D After service ended we took a cab and rushed over to Expo for the second service at 745pm. After service we fellowshipped at foyer 3 and then after that we took a train down to Somerset and reached at about 1140pm. We walked over to Cine, went up, then came back down and walked towards Wisma and were caught in a big jam as midnight just passed when we went out of Cine. Then we decided to walk out of the jam so we walked back and slacked outside the hotel beside Cine (dunno the name) before walking to Orchard mrt to take the train back. After reaching home i went back down to Cheers to buy RedBull cause i'm staying up the whole night, and the customer in front of me...

I feel down now. I do not know why. As im drawing out my drafts and everything for the bbq, i almost broke into tears for dont-know-what-reason. Part of me is feeling real down because of an unknown reason, and another part of me is feeling very guilty and filled with regrets. I feel so alone. Yes i might have people to talk to every now and then but then staying in my room all alone now really makes me feel like im all alone in this world. Nothing can ever describe how i feel because this is how i feel every night when i reminisce of my life. Maybe i've made many mistakes in my life and today was christmas service for me to re-think about my life but i mean this kind of "lonely" feeling is just so cold and cruel when it hits you and stays with you at night. Nobody in this world really understands me. Even the people closest to me cant understand me. Maybe the reason why nobody can help me is because ive been trying too hard to seek for companionship. Yes, maybe thats the...

When you do a mistake, and you already totally know that it's wrong before you do it and theres even your inner voice telling you not to do it, but you still go ahead and make the mistake out of desperation, the fear of the thing done wrong haunts you every night. If youre never caught, you'll live with the fear of what you did for a few months or years. But when youre caught, you live with the fear of getting your punishment, and once you receive it, you live with days filled with misery and regret forever. Sometimes some people do things out of real, pure desperation. But i mean, if you have limited resources, so will your luxuries be limited. Ohwells. The Great Countdown: 7 Days To BBQ!

First, it was my dad who said i wasn't as "guai" as my sister. And then it was my aunt who said she doesnt wanna be bothered about me anymore. And now, my uncle has said he has given up on me. The people whom i thought would understand me has just left me so easily over a stupid mistake that i did. Am i really just a trouble-maker? Why am i like this? Forever a nuisance to someone else? Sigh.

Hmm. I feel that it's finally time to blog about my life. Well, i shall start with last friday (7December). This is the day when i had the cycling event... Glen came over to my house at about 620pm and looked through my com for songs for his new e65. My brother phone. ;D Anyways we left my house at about 645pm and we went over to Dasiree's house at yio chu kang cause i needed to submit my camp form. After that we went over to the coffeeshop at amk to eat minced pork noodles. It's nice. heh. After eating we took a cab over to Glen's church and saw that the bikes were kinda run-down so we decided to go back to get our own bikes. We cabbed over to Glen's house and i continued the journey to tpy and i reached home at about 9pm. After getting my bike i rushed over to Glen's house and we straight away cycled down to Glen's church. After everything was settled down and stuff, everyone left at about 10pm and we made our way from Lavender to National Stadium and taki...

Well, for the first few lines of blogging about my room, not many would understand unless you've been to my room a couple of times before. Well, i couldn't sleep so i ended up drawing a sketch of the TV area in my room into a nice place to look at. This was inspired after what i saw at the theatres and after some look at someone's beautiful house . hahs. After drawing out a nice console with nice lighting plans, i decided to make my dream come true. So i did some simple cleaning and clearing on the TV rack. Now the place looks nicer and more comfortable to look at but i still havent got a light. Well, after i'm back from church camp, i'll get a nice lighting and speaker twin wires and i'll replace the speaker wires cause i've realised the left side is getting a bit off. The sound clarity is different. And after i'm done replacing the wires, i shall install the lighting. I'm soo ambitious. And on thursday, i shall go get the christmas decors and ligh...

Hmms. Blogging on the phone again because i cant be bothered to switch on the com... Wells, today i went to watch 'Fred Claus' and i realise i havent been doing much decorations to welcome in christmas. Usually my small christmas tree would be set up in my room and twinkling away by 1st november, but up till today, i still havent set it up.. Ohwells. Now theres no christmas-sy thing in my room. Well, after i come back from all my away-from-home stuff, i guess i'll get more christmas decor as well as new lights to light up the whole room instead of only lighting up the tree. Ohwells, hope it can happen. Anyways after watching the movie i also realised i have been neglecting my theatre system. I havent aligned or Check the condition of my speakers. Well, i guess i'll take a look at it after im back as well. (: maybe it's time for me to change the wires again. Heh.