Have you ever tried to cycle while crying at the same time? Well, i tried to... In fact i didn't really try, because it just happened to me like that.. While you reluctantly cycle away from the road filled with memories that will soon be replaced by another guy, and as you start to take one last look before cycling off, you start crying uncontrollably. And as you cycle on, people by the side of the road keep staring at you as you sob and howl and cycle at the same time. You try to control the cries but the sound of whizzing cars just dont cover up your loud sobs and cries. And as your tears start drying, you feel the skin on your cheeck tighten. And as you think about it again, the same cycle repeats itself... And as you cycle, you just wish that a car in front of you just stops as you cruise at 25km/h and as you swerve to right, a big tanker from the next lane travelling at 80km/h will hit you and just end your life. Ever felt that kind of feeling? Because i'm feeling it now and i have been feeling it since Monday... Sigh. When will this painful torture end?

Locking yourself in a room or cycling till your legs break isn't helping me a single bit. Sighs.

I actually cycled 11.85KM within 33minutes and 15seconds just to rush over to see you. And in the end, i only get to see her for less than 5minutes without talking much, except following her to her doorstep like a dog, and thats it. Sighs. It does not make me angry, but it makes me suicidal. Sighs. My emotions are just so obviously unstable...

What can numb the pain and what can take the pain away ?