What is the point?

So, after being away for a month without blogging, I'm signing in to Blogger again. I just can't handle life anymore. I cannot wait for it to end. I don't care if I've missed out on things in life but I just want it to end. From someone's perspective, they may think that I can create videos well and be a good videographer, though I think that my work is only average. But the question is, so what? No one knows what I go through apart from skills and what goes on in my life. Maybe I don't share, but again, so what? Sharing won't help. Neither will a shoulder. I just want all of these to end. Sigh.