Lost kid.
I'm starting to stress up. I have so many things in my mind as well as to do. Pimples are forming up all over my imperfect face. Gah. Assignments have piled up. I really thank God for public holidays. They actually help me.
Anyway, not going to talk about school work. It's just crazy though there are only 5 core modules this semester. I'm going to talk about what's on my mind. Well, I'm strongly against the idea or concept that long-distance relationships (LDR) can actually work. I've preached this to many that there is no way that it can work. But now, I have to debate with myself whether or not to believe in what I preach. If I am still against LDRs, there is no way on earth that I will make it through week 1, let alone 4 years. I am really troubled and it has bugged me this entire week. I could not focus in lectures and tutorials, project meetings would see me staring off into space while debates among others occured, and I'd always be close to tears at all times.
I really am lost. Will this work? Will it? I really wish that it will. If it does, we will emerge stronger at the end of the 4 years. It's scary knowing that you can count down the days till the relationship goes to a semi-hiatus mode. It has happened to me before - where the end of the relationship was a countdown because of emigration - and it is really scary. The last few days will be full of sorrow, tears, and unexpected things. Sigh. I just wish life wasn't this mean to me. Just when I thought my life was all good, things like this had to happen. Sigh. I'm running on limited time. Till then, I am praying for a miracle.
I'm starting to stress up. I have so many things in my mind as well as to do. Pimples are forming up all over my imperfect face. Gah. Assignments have piled up. I really thank God for public holidays. They actually help me.
Anyway, not going to talk about school work. It's just crazy though there are only 5 core modules this semester. I'm going to talk about what's on my mind. Well, I'm strongly against the idea or concept that long-distance relationships (LDR) can actually work. I've preached this to many that there is no way that it can work. But now, I have to debate with myself whether or not to believe in what I preach. If I am still against LDRs, there is no way on earth that I will make it through week 1, let alone 4 years. I am really troubled and it has bugged me this entire week. I could not focus in lectures and tutorials, project meetings would see me staring off into space while debates among others occured, and I'd always be close to tears at all times.
I really am lost. Will this work? Will it? I really wish that it will. If it does, we will emerge stronger at the end of the 4 years. It's scary knowing that you can count down the days till the relationship goes to a semi-hiatus mode. It has happened to me before - where the end of the relationship was a countdown because of emigration - and it is really scary. The last few days will be full of sorrow, tears, and unexpected things. Sigh. I just wish life wasn't this mean to me. Just when I thought my life was all good, things like this had to happen. Sigh. I'm running on limited time. Till then, I am praying for a miracle.
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